BMI

As I am nearing my goal, I'm thinking of my new one. The whole reason I started this journey was to make myself healthy, so I have been keeping track of my BMI and right now it is 30 (the obese/overweight range). A healthy normal BMI ranges from 18.5-24.9, and after some research I have determined that my healthy weight (to reach normal BMI) is between 170-175lbs. This weight would be the top of the normal range.

So here is my thought.... once I hit my -60lbs, would it be possible to lose that much more (23-28 more lbs.)? Would that make me "too skinny" for my height? Could I do it before the New Year?

Lots for me to think about, but if my goal is to be as healthy as I can be, why stop at 60? Ya know?

Collage

It's a lazy day today. I'll hit the gym later this afternoon, so I decided to make a collage of my weight loss journey so far. Kinda cool to see the progress :)

Almost there!!

I hit 50lbs this morning!! 208.0! :) Just have to hold onto it, preferably lose more before the official weigh-in on Monday!

Now to post pics! I also found a pic that is from Christmas that will show my heaviest weight. I'm wearing layers, but you'll get the drift, lol

PS: I can't believe I really lost 50lbs.... crazy....

Little thoughts...

1.) This is random, but I have decided that Nicki Minaj has the perfect music for me to get "fired up" to while I'm working out. Her music can sometimes be vulgar, but the beats and some of the lyrics make me feel like a bad ass, lol ;)

Do you have a favorite music to workout to?

2.) I have been busting me bootie at the gym and I've been really good with my diet the last two days, so I'm reaaalllllyyyy hoping that I hit the -50lbs mark tomorrow. *fingers crossed*

3.) Spent time at the pool today and I'm thinking that my long term goal (after 60 by 30) is to get into and FEEL COMFORTABLE in a two-piece next summer. I have never worn one (besides as a little kid) and it's a "bucket list" thing for me. I could wear one now, but so could anyone, ya know? I want to wear one and think I look good in it. So, it will be a physical and emotional challenge for me. Plus, it will give me a goal to help me maintain my weight loss, especially over the holidays.

Weigh-in Monday: 6/27/11

210.0, up 0.4. Ooops!

So, this weekend I had "Ladies Night" on Friday and drank ridiculous amounts and snacked and go the "munchies" at 2am (hence the freakin' McD's Quarter Pounder! Boo.) All of that, plus Will and I went and had mexican Saturday did not make for a happy weigh-in today. I did still work out this weekend though, so that is the only reason that it was not more gain than that!


A positive not about Ladies Night was 1.) I had an AWESOME time and 2.) I met a new friend (through another one of my girlfriends) who wants to start doing Zumba with me! She came yesterday and it was awesome to have a familiar face in there with me. She seems really cool, so maybe I found a new friend! She also thanked me for reminding her about the importance of getting into the gym, and that made me feel good :)

New goal for this week: 208.2, because that will be my 50lbs. I know I wanted to hit it this past week, but didn't happen. No need to focus on that I just need to get back on track with the diet this week!  What's done is done.

Weigh-in Monday: 6/20/11

Holy Crap!

209.6! Woot woot! :) I actually got on the scale 4 times this morning because I didn't believe it!

Lots of emotions this morning:
1. Gratefulness: for a group of ladies on my baby board (December 08' Mamas)! There is absolutely.no.way I would have gotten this far without having their ears to listen to me vent or their support in times of happiness. I would have quit a long time ago at the first sign that this was going to be "tough'. I truly love those ladies.
2. Happiness and excitement: because I don't think I remember when I was 20__. It must have been my freshman year of college. I entered college under 200, and by the end of freshman year I was 215, ugh. That was 11 years ago! Wow, I really have been putting on weight for 11 freaking years?!? That's crazy.
3. Scared: Thats it's *just* under 210. I don't want to go back over because then I know it will make me feel bad. I'm a weirdo, haha!

On another note, I was really proud of myself yesterday. I was suppose to "take off" from the gym and use it as my rest day, but I got bored at home and I knew that they had a Zumba class yesterday afternoon. So, instead of sitting on the couch watching TV and eating, I got up at went to Zumba. Not an intense workout, just a fun way to get out of the house. I proud because I made a healthy decision instead of a crappy decision (like I would have made before). It just proves to me that I am actually making this a lifestyle, which is really cool, because I've never done that before. :)

Today, is *truly* going to be my off day, so we are headed to the pool! :) I need to get some sun on these pasty legs, haha!

Next goal, -50lbs. Only 1.4lbs to get there! Here we go...

Scared?

Is anyone else scared of the person they will become once they reach their goal? I hope that doesn't sound crazy, but I sometimes get nervous about not knowing how "new and improved Alison" will be. I think I have been so used to being in the "big girl" body and I know how to "be" a plus size girl, but I don't know how to "be" anything other than that. It has been part of my identity for my entire life. No one has ever expected me to be smaller than what I am, even myself. I find myself, even now, saying to people (when they ask me about how much weight I'm trying to lose), "Well, I know I'll never be skinny, so I really just want to lose about 60lbs." Well, dammit, why can't I be skinny?!? I can! And today when I was working out I got pissed about all the times people told me I was "just big boned" or "you have a pretty face" or "you looked so good when you were about xx lbs." This has made me reconsider my goal.

 I certainly am sticking to my 60 by 30 ;) but I'm thinking about trying to lose 20 more after that by the end of the year. If so, I would be a healthy bmi. And I think that this would be awesome motivation for myself and it would be me proving to all those people, that have ever doubted me, wrong! I would be included in that group of people ;) 

Just a few thoughts...

Monday Weigh-In: 6/13/11

Official.....drumroll please..... 213.2 :) That makes an even 45lbs! That's just plain crazy!

I honestly do not know how that happend! I seemed to plateau where I couldn't get below 215, and that kinda put me in a rut, but I stuck to my routine through it. So, I guess it just proves to my self to stick through the "rough patches" because I will get through them....just not as quickly as I like. ;) Typically, too, when I hit a rut, that is when I just give in and "settle" for the weight that I've lost and say "Oh, you've done good. It's okay if you don't lose anymore.". THANK GOODNESS I didn't do that this time! That makes me very proud of myself (probably even more proud that losing the pounds).

The Scale

I got some new batteries for the scale last night and when I weighed this morning it still said down 3. So I guess it was right and I didn't need the new batteries. Hmm. Maybe all the training is paying off! Yesterday I took the day off from the gym, so today I will go in the afternoon and do my C25K and Zumba. :)

Last nights grill out was good! They grilled chicken breasts, made a rice/broccli bake, and watermelon. It was delicious AND healthy! :)

Official weigh-in tomorrow, so we will see if I can maintain that!

OH! And I made a "light" version of one of my fave summer pasta salads! And it's suuuppper easy!

Here is the "light" version:
1 box SmartTaste pasta (I used penne)
1 small zuccini sliced
about 1 cup grape tomatoes (halved)
1 cup thinly sliced red onion
2 cups (1 bag) of Kraft reduced fat Three Cheese Crumbles
1 cup Kraft Light Balsamic Vinegarette

1. Slice veggies, put in large bowl.
2. Put in cheese.
3. Cook pasta and rinse in cold water until cool.
4. Place in bowl with veggies and cheese and mix. Then mix in dressing.
5. Put in fridge to cool.

ENJOY!

Family and food...

I've been MIA for a little bit because I was wrapping up my school year (as a teacher) and have been just super busy with family life. So, Will, Madie and I went to VA to see my Dad, sis and stepmom and it was awesome! We went to the zoo on Saturday, which was a good amount of walking, and then Will and I had date night that night while sis babysat Madie. It was a loving and relaxing weekend, which was much needed! :)

With that being said, we ate whatever we wanted. Hamburgers, pizza, sushi, and ice  cream (with crushed twix and m&m's on top lol) were the menu. So.... as you can predict, crappy food + not a lot of exercise = weight gain. ugh. It stinks, BUT I don't feel guilty about it. First, I haven't had a gain in a while and it was soooo nice to not "worry" about it and enjoy the time with my family. I was focusing on that more.

So, the weigh-in on Monday 6/6 was: 217.4, up 1.2. oops!

This week:
I've been struggling with the "still feel fat" feeling. It sucks. And I've not been as motivated as usual, and I feel a little "stuck". I've added weight training to my workout, which I know is the right thing to do, because I want to tighten up too, but I think that is hindering actual "pounds" loss.  Now, I just got on the scale this morning and it said I had lost 3lbs, but I thought that was wonky so I got on a few more times and it said something different each time. So, I just think it is time for a battery change lol! Well, we will see what happens on Monday with the official weigh-in.

Today we will be heading to a little cookout, but I'm going to do my best to "be good". I'll let you know how that goes! ;)