Letting go!

Last week I had "big" ideas of doing all classes etc. to change up my routine... that ended up being a bunch of blah blah blah...

I was feeling a little burnt out, so after taking some advice from some of my December Mama's, I decided I just needed to take time off and "let go". I was feeling bad, but then I gave myself a timeline of a week to chill on the exercise and eat whatever I wanted. So, yesterday was the last day of that and TODAY is back on the wagon. Last night when I went to bed I was telling Will that I felt like crap. It was gross. I WAY over indulged this week, and I hated the way it made me feel. I got all my binge foods out of the way this week, so all of those craving are gone, but yuck, I know now why I always felt so crappy before I lost the weight.

This was me last night...ugh. 

I know I gained some pounds back this week, but I think my mind benefited way more than my body, and that is always a plus! I feel motivated to really get back into my regular routine, and I truly want to get to 188 for my 30th birthday. It would just be such a cool milestone to ring it a new decade of life with a big achievement like that . So, time to keep on truckin.... ;)

I can not tell a lie

My head is not in the game lately.

Since Wednesday I have not worked out an have eaten like crap. Ugh. I planned on doing all classes and Friday I got ready for Body Combat and was running a little late, so I just decided not to go. Ridiculous.

I don't know what is going on with me. I feel like it's harder for me to stay on track lately and I need a kick in my ass. I do think though that I've started to "settle" since I've hit my original goal, and I DON'T WANT TO. Lack of motivation has also been due to seriously having tons of stuff going on this month in my life that makes it harder for me to by a "gym rat" as usual, but it should be NO excuse for me eating like crap. Also, Will and I have decided that we are going to try for #2 :) So, I think my head has been wrapped up in that as well. Ugh, I just made a ton of excuses right? Boo.

I've gotten comfortable in my skin too. I feel SO much better about myself physically, mentally and healthy wise, so I almost wonder if my body and brain are telling me I'm "good" with where I'm at. Part of my thinks I may change my final goal to 188 because I do feel really well about where I'm at right now. I would like to shed those last couple pounds though, and then just maintain. Sheesh. I'm throwing a million ideas around in my head right now.

Now... ALL of this ridiculously random post could be about the fact that Bitch from Hell is here right now, which makes me all bloated and emotional.... who knows.

Okay... for real, if you read all of this I should hug you for making it through it ;) *HUGS*

A week of change...

I'm finally figuring out what exercise schedule works best for my body and for my mental state lol ;) I weigh in on Wednesdays, so the past couple of weeks I've been "taking off" Wednesday and Thursday from the gym. That has seemed to be working well for me, because sometimes one day off doesn't make me excited to get back in the gym, but two does. It gives me enough separation from the gym to relax and recoup mentally for the week ahead.

So, it's back to the gym today and I decided that I'm going to switch things up this week. One, because it's good for your body and two, because I think some of the machines are starting to "bore" me a little now that I'm getting closer to my ultimate goal. Because of these things, I'm going to do a week of just classes, no machines. II'll squeeze in my regular ab workout, but thats it. I think this will give me a chance to try some things I never have before. I've always wanted to try Pilates, but never did because it "didn't fit with my cardio training", so this week I have no excuses :) I'm really excited about this week and I actually think it will be a challenge for me *not* to hop on a cardio machine. I'll keep ya'll posted.

Tonight will be Body (kickmyfreakin'ass) Combat. The girl who teaches this is a freakin' B.E.A.S.T, so prayers would be great ;)

I *love* this saying too! 

Also, no scale for me this week. I'm usually a scale junkie and weigh everyday, but I will not weigh myself until Wednesday this week. I think if I weigh and don't see changes that I'm going to tell myself that they classes "aren't good enough" and will hop on a machine. I *really* need to start weaning myself from the scale and focus more on how I'm feeling in my skin rather than what the scales tells me I should feel ;)

Have a great weekend everyone!!

Wednesday Weigh-in: 8/17/11

Today: 193.6, down 2.2

Slow and steady wins the race right? 

Again, not a huge loss, but I've been consistent in the past weeks. I've made a new small goal and that is to get to 188.2 (70lbs. lost) by my birthday. That would be 10lbs. more than what I wanted to achieve when I started, so I think that would be cool.

Also, I've noticed this week, that eating right and wanting to get exercise is part of my everyday life routine. I don't even *think* about making better choices, they kinda just happen, it's neat. I was also thinking, I'm really ready to be to the point where I just have to maintain. I'll be so excited to reach my final goal so that I can be one of *those people* who have reached their goal and now they are trying to maintain ;) Hopefully, that won't be too far in my future lol

I also added 4 more "Thoughts per Pound" to go with my four extra pounds of weight loss.

Wednesday Weigh-in: 8/10/11

Today's weight: 195.8, down 2lbs.

I'm cool with that :) I think it's getting a little harder to get "big" weight loss numbers each week since I'm getting closer to a healthy weight. If I can get 1-2lbs weight loss each week I will certainly make my goal by January (I counted ;))

On to a new week! I hope everyone is celebrating their own successes!

Family Day :)

Will went to Georgia this weekend to do some testing with US Customs, so my Dad and sister decided to drive down from Virginia (where I'm originally from). We were super excited! We don't get to see them as often and we like even though it's only a 2hour drive.

Originally, we planned to make it a pool day, but since Madie was still a little under the weather I found this really cute place where you paint your own pottery. Since it was too hot outside for the park I thought this would be a cute idea. So, we went to eat first at Cracker Barrell, yuuummmmo! I got the grilled chicken tenderloin sandwich and subbed out the fries for a salad, so I was proud of myself. I did sneak a few of Madie's fried okra though ;) Hey, its a veggie dipped in fattening batter and grease, right?

Then we went off to make our pottery. It was so much fun and Madie had a blast! She made a plate for "Grandaddy and Baba" (my dad's, for 8years, girlfriend whom they both refuse to marry because "why fix what's not broken", who has been "grandma" since my mom is a d-bag, there I said it. ;)). Once we were done we come home a took a nap :) It was much needed. By that point it was too late to go to the gym, but since we had such a great day, I was okay with that.

Today, Will is back to we will be back to the grind at the gym! Hope everyone's weekend was great and here is to a successful week!

Here are some pics of me and my crazy wonderful family!

Little sister, Me, Madie and my Dad :)

Me, Madie and Dad

"Grandaddy, this is some serious business. I'm trying to concentrate."

Finished product!

Sick Day

Since my weigh in on Wednesday I've been doing so-so. Weds. and Thurs. I didn't go to the gym...and honestly, I was just in a funk. I don't know where it came from. I ate more than I should've too. I was eating crappy things like chicken nuggets and nachos, ugh.

It got me to thinking a few things:
 1. I still have issues with emotional eating. That is going to be super hard to work on. I really need to find a replacement activity for that. The gym will not always be an option, so what can I do at home *instead* of eating?

2. Why do they call my binge food "comfort food" because I always feel crappy after I eat it, so it's not very comforting. But why do I crave those foods too? Why *are* they comforting?

On Friday, I snapped myself out of it and really had a hard workout yesterday. Today I was super motivated to go workout again, but baby girl is really sick with allergies and Will is in Georgia doing some testing for a US Customs job, so the gym is a no-go today. I'm just trying to watch my calories today and get back on the wagon tomorrow. My family comes to town around 11am and we are going to hang out for the day, so I hope Madie feels better. I hate it when she is sick, but it is kinda nice to just lay around with her and cuddle. :) Tomorrow, I hope I have time to squeeze in a workout before the gym close at 7pm. If not, I may dust off my Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred ;) We will see.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Wednesday Weigh-in: 8/3/11

This week: 197.8, down 1.4lb from last week

I'm happy with this :) I'm moving farther away from 200 so that is very cool! Onto another week! I hope everyone has a great one!

A first...ever!

I just got back from the gym and while there I decided to change up my cardio routine. I thought it would be a good idea to kick start my journey to losing this last bit of weight. So, I did the elliptical for 30 minutes (typical) then I decided to do the treadmill. I had done Couch to 5K a little while ago, but then quit because it was hard to do with my boobs (hurt when I ran because of improper sports bra for my size) and the wrong shoes. Since it's been a while since I was on the treadmill, I was curious to see how my endurance was since I've lost weight and been working out. I got the greatest sports bra ever yesterday at a Champions Outlet down here, so I figured it may help me run.

I proceeded to walk on the treadmill for 5mins at a 2.0 incline then I told myself I was going to see if I could run for 5 minutes (I seriously doubted myself). So, I put the incline to 0.5 and began to run...at 2 minutes I thought to myself, "Dang, when I first started I barely could run the 90 seconds it wanted me too and now I'm not even breathing hard!"..so that was cool... then at 5 minutes I realized that is longest I had EVER (I mean EVER) run without walking. At that point, I challenged myself to get to 10 minutes running and I DID IT! I could not believe it! It was such a cool accomplishment for me because that is the longest amount of time I have ever run! It made me very proud of myself and then it really made me realize how far I've come. It also made me recognize that I am getting *in shape*. Not just losing weight, but I am getting HEALTHY! That was the purpose of my journey, so that tugged at my heartstrings a little :) On cloud nine tonight :)

Moving Weigh-in

After taking a look at my weight loss and eating patterns I've decided to move my weigh-in days to Wednesday. I think it just gives a more accurate account of what I've done during the week. So, instead of a weigh-in today, I'll post on Wednesday this week.

Also, I'm going to "start over" with keeping track. I'm going to have my starting weight as 199.2 (my weight from last Monday) and make my goal 178.2. I think it will keep me more motivated to kind of have a "fresh start" in my head. It also seems its becoming a little more difficult to lose these last 20lbs. Guess that just means I have to be even more diligent about working out and watching my food intake.

What do you all do to help you lose that "last bit" of weight?


*I posted my "Thoughts Per Pound" page. It was really enlightening for me to analyze my thoughts concerning the weight I've lost--- hope you enjoy a look into my thoughts :)